Paulina Porizkova’s life changed forever on September 15, 2019

She had said good night to late husband and singer-songwriter Ric Ocasek the night before

and started preparing him a coffee the next morning when he hadn’t yet come downstairs

The couple announced their separation in 2017

after nearly 30 years of marriage,

but they were still living in the same Gramercy townhouse they’d shared for decades.

When Porizkova went upstairs with his coffee

she found that Ocasek had died in the night — and new essay collection No Filter:

The Good, the Bad, and the Beautiful details the intense collapse she experienced at the shock of this moment. 

“I turned to touch his shoulder, and it was then that I saw his eyes

“I turned to touch his shoulder, and it was then that I saw his eyes